dimanche, novembre 27, 2005
today is a sunday.
she has been playing ro non-stop with time for little else. that sort of explains her level jump to 41 in just a few days. thx to all those ppl tanking her. =)
today, particularly, she feels like bitching.
she told me: she can't stand emotional people. people with a knack for bringing up the past. she's definitely done a lot of foolish things of which she is very very very ashamed of and will gladly tell anyone who will listen that she has passed through that phase.
what is the point in bringing up the past and all the past feelings? it IS past. let bygones be bygones. for afact, she feeels extremely uncomfortable when someone just suddenly bring up the past topic. topic that has expired for eons. it makes her feel all squirmy. and yess, she starts squirming in her seat.
you could say thats her ego working on her but well, how would anyone feel if someone just suddnly exposes your past secrets in front of all your new friends??? there is a reason you dont want to tell your new friends your past secrets, dont you think?
in case you are frowning due to utter confusion, the conversation, usually, in her case, begins like this:-
"hey, did you know that last time, she used to *blablablablablablablablabla*"
or
"you remember last time you used to *blablablablablablablablabla*
what exactly happened to her was that someone actually told everyone her old crush and how she was so crazy over him... i mean, it is in PAST TENSE!! she WAS crazy over him, not anymore. so where's the relevance in that?!
it was as follows:-
"hey, you remember *****? did i tell you that i bla bla bla bla? omg, he was so bla bla bla"
she was thinking, " u have been telling me that everytime you meet me for the past 2 years!! why cant you spar my friends the agony?"
thank god all the others did not hearand only her friends who actually knew about it heard.
someone asked, "hus *****?"
and she answered, " oh, he died"
well, he did, in a way.
to all the past memories, you're dead, so stay buried in that coffin six feet under.
for heaven's sake, let go. the past has passed.
>9:37 PM
dimanche, novembre 20, 2005
today is sunday
the first sunday that the girl spent, WITHOUT GUILT!! as usual, sundays are spent lazing around, but today, at least, she dint feel bad lazing around. what fun.
exams are a thing of the past now. she need not bother anymore.
she knows that she did not do her best. it was less than half of her best. so much potential, all gone to waste. no matter, lets forget the past. let bygones be bygones.
she started on ragnarok today, with kristen's help, of course. she still doesnt know what she wants to be, though. in the game, i mean.
ah well.
>6:53 PM