jeudi, septembre 22, 2005
today is thursday.
the girl had her chem and bio paper one exams today. accordig to her, it was not that bad. comme d'habitude, she will say, its not that difficult but its not that easy. hmmm.... as i said, contradicting. but really, she said that chem, was do-able and bio was very tricky but well.. she doesnt have confidence in passing either of them.
for once she hopes to pass chemistry. she never did pass chem. maybe it was her sec 3 chem teacher's fault for killing her passion in that subject. cos really, she likes studying chem but just doesnt seem to be able to pass. but last year, she hated chem like shit. her chem teacher had never been able to make the class pay attention. maybe that is why.
after her papers, she was in a dilemma: should she or should she not go with her friends to play bball at mp? hmmm... god knows, she needs the exercise. but they had not informed her earlier and so she did not have any money (unless u count 30 cents as lunch money) and she was freaking starving. so it looks like the best option was to go home. furthermore, she had lina to go home with. BUT, no, that she did not do. she went along.
she thought that well, she needs to spend time with her friends. know a little about whats going on in their lives. but as she walks with them, she realised that she is way out of touch wit them. she felt sad, somehow, that as she walks with them, she doesnt understand what they are talking about. no, of course they were speaking english and not a foreign language. but the topic was foreign to her.
suddenly she felt strangely out of place. yes, among her friends. no one seems to bother to explain to her so she just sat there. staring. really, she felt VERY out of place. she began wondering. was it really that long? no, its only been a week. this week. well, they cant fikking blame her, they dont fikking take the same subjects. and it pisses her off so much when they say that she doesnt meet them cos she is busy studying! NOOOOO!!! she has not been studying!
okay. everyday, she goes home, takes a shower, then watch television with her grandmother. then, sleeps. when she wakes up, she has her dinner and then, watch tv again! but, they STUDY in school. she is freaking irritated with thm saying that she isthe one so caught up with studying.
she doesnt know exactly how she feels. sometimes she feels like a shadow. really.
however, apparently, she loves them to bits and pieces and she thinks that really, its not their fault. time. its all about spending time.
>9:23 PM
lundi, septembre 12, 2005
and so it starts again.
prelims. this morning, this girl had her biology paper. she did not manage to complete, as is expected. she did only half of the part (a) of the last essay question.
right now, she is worried about amaths exam tomorrow. she had tuition just now to clear her last minute doubts. but really, las minute work is never worth anything. she had been doing too much of emaths paper 1. her amaths got neglected as a result. even her tutor said that her amaths was rusty. she has the correct methods and techniques but she doesnt seem to be able to get the correct answer. her carelessness is horrible. her work is atrocious. oh no. how the fikk is she going to do the amaths tomorrow??
wish her luck. may god bless her. she needs it, really.
>8:53 PM